The tornado sirens were going off and off and off and off today. The damn tornadoes didn’t even give any warning, they’d form as they dropped down to the ground and then go right back up to the clouds. They were everywhere. Doesn’t look like there was much damage in the KC area but Sedalia got some damage. Looks like no deaths, though, thank God.

So I go into my utility room with my blankie so I can use it for protection but I simply cannot stand for any length of time and finally, sirens still going, I said “fuck it!” and sat back down in my recliner, covered up with my blanket and went to sleep. Of course I prayed first. Did a lot of that today.

If I get rich, I’m building a double brick house with a reinforced roof super glued on (or whatever so it doesn’t blow off) and a small underground basement with a ramp down to it, a refrigerator on batteries and beer in it. Plus bread and mayo and pickles and onions and Swiss cheese and smoked turkey for sammies. Oh and sour cream and onion potato chips. They always make me feel better. Lots of beer.

I tell you, I am emotionally and physically drained. I spent Sunday through yesterday crying (literally) over Joplin. Today I spent it scared.

My Home Health person is grocery shopping for me now and I told her to get $10 to $15 worth of bottled water for Joplin. She’s gathering stuff to take down there from people she knows, clothes and other things. I’m sending with her 3-4 bins of women’s clothes of mine that I had outgrown. They’re nicely organized by size in my closet. I had never taken them to Good Will and wondered what the hell I was doing not getting rid of them. Now I know. There are people who now literally have nothing but the clothes on their backs. I gave to the Red Cross, too.

I think I’m now broke. But I’m content that I have done what I can for people who need.

It blows my mind that I was trying to figure out how I could get those clothes down to Joplin and in walks Paula who is going down there specifically to take what she has gathered to those poor people. Wow! I know many of you don’t believe in God, but I have seen Him work too many times to doubt His reality. He is not some little old man in the sky but is a force that is wonderful.

While I was cowering in my chair, my friend, Cat, called from Columbia to tell me to take cover. She said she was heading East when she left Columbia rather than west to go home. I told her, “Yeah, head East and don’t stop until you hit the ocean. If the tornado hits, I’ll see you there.”

Might as well get a good laugh out of a bad situation.